smiling for you

i smile

so you feel at ease.

so you don’t worry.

because the worst thing i could do

is worry you

even if i’m worth worrying for.

you ask me every day how i am

i say fine.

every

single

day.

because god forbid one day i’m not

what would happen?

i don’t have the guts to find out.

you would understand

you’ve been through it

the same pain i have.

but we can’t talk

i don’t know the reasons why

but we just can’t.

so i smile

and say

i’m good.

every single day.

maybe one day i’ll believe my own lie.